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11th Dec 2005 / 14:14

Alone at home..Waiting for my Dear to come!

07/12/2005
I have been sick for more than a weeks..uneasy, discomfort throat is torturing me..Taken half day off went see doctor..CGH =>Changi General Hospital..
Doc diagnose: Virus infections at throat area..given 2 days MC..

08/12/2005/ 02:30
In the middle of the night..feeling hungry, as gastrics is giving me problem..woke up and look for my mom (maybe this is what we call dependent)..She help me to make milo and biscults..but no appetite..suddenly feel restless and there i go black out..

This is the first time i ever feel so scare in my life...getting exams result for 'O'level, PSLE or Diploma certi..is not even compatible to this feeling..SCARE!! Believe this is human's nature..I feel lost at that moment..not remember anything but the only thing i heard the next minute is my aunt's prayer....that brings me back..

And i have been in and out of hospital for days..at night i will go praying to god..telling god how i feel..

Right at this very minute i am typing this blog..i am still sick..feeling sick..is better than the first few days, defintely but the feeling (SCARE) is still surrounding me..But one thing i feel that reali makes me feel warmth and safe is "LOVE"..from GOD as well as from my family, inclusive of my future lao gong..

Now i start to read books on 'him'..is just so wonderful that keeps me accompany..

This sickness make me realise that how important to treasure people around you..and of cos love yourself!!

Hope i can get well soon and celebrate christmas with my family as well as my laogong!!

feeling numb @ 2:12 PM

Here i am blogging again..haha..just nothing to do so come online and blogggggg...hoho..

Just injure my neck last fri and what makes me super duper piss off is even i sprain my neck i still need to go work on fri...><..oh my god..what is this man..and so i cannot stand the pain..went for the Chinese sen seih...my god..and there my blue black come bout..>< is just so pain..n still after after those pain i stil need to get a cab down to work..n who is gonna pay for my medical fees as well as the cab fare...NONE!!

Life just sucks recently for me..work n supervisor sucks..i think...just kinda feel like leaving this job..what the hack is a supervisor for when she even cannot handle her own stuff n when her subordinates got problem looking for her..all she does is to "okay i will get back to you..." N never comes back again..><

Of cos this is working life..so i believe everyone agrees that every work has its own difficulty...but just cant stand it..think the thing that makes me miss this job is only my colleagues..good colleagues..haha..helpful ones..just love them..hoho..should post some of their photos online n show to everyone ha..hohoho..

Thinking to improve myself by taking up courses ah..n this words has been coming out from my mouth for months (Mr Cheoh told me this yesterday night..><)..but no action has been done..haha..okay i will do it soon okay..just need to save up first..or else damn broke man...

Ya just got my phone..hoho 6680..nice..hoho..hope this phone can stay with me for long...^^..muz thanks my dearest "Lou Gong" ah Cheoh..haha...

Thinking to quit my current job..><...but i need to get another one first..or else will be staying at home doin nothing..

Should stop here liao..hehe..will come online n blog more often ah..haha..

feeling numb @ 9:48 AM

Time/Date: 22:36/12th Nov 05

Have not been blogging since the day my Snailaogong POP..haha..suddenly feel like update my blog..hehe..

Bascially work, sleep, exercise and on call is what i have doing lately..hehe..working in DHL for more than 3 months..haha..sounds great cos people who knows me know my pattern..haha..so for 3 months isn't easy ah..i think most importantly is i have grown up..know how to think.so that makes my life turning to another stage..

Mr Cheoh not coming out this weekend..miss him sooooo sooo much..weekend comes still not able to meet up with him..upset me but is okay..in this way when he is out we will hug* more tightly than ever..ahaha..

Life izzt easy when start working..especially in an environment of "DHL.."hmmm..not as easy as i think..this job isn't bad just i hope to put into good use of what i have learn..this job no matter what i still don't think is reali something for me..but working for the time being is good enough.hehe.don't know able to get another job or mayb will stay on for long..no idea for the future..

Now listening to a very nice song by Yang Cheng Lin...

"穿上洋装看着手表时间快到心碰碰的跳和你的第一次约会来临了金色的阳光洒满人行道换了新唇膏把头发弄好要你看到我的好喜欢看你走路充满自信说话时候你的专注眼神温柔的表情笑容里的天真我相信找不到有比你更好的人你心里理想情人是几分是否也会有我的份好想知道你的100分会给怎样的人亲爱的你不要再陌生增加我戏份我想问亲爱的你把感情升等朋友变成情人可不可以告诉我标准不要让我一直等听着那时间滴答的走对街的你在点头好像一个梦渐渐走到我前头好想知道你的100分会给怎样的人亲爱的你不要再陌生增加我戏份我想问亲爱的你把感情升等朋友变成情人可不可以告诉我标准不要让我一直等"

The above is the lyrics..hehe..damn nice..i like it..

Okay is late..i going to sleep liao..will update more often..heehee

feeling numb @ 10:35 PM

I love Mr Cheoh...knowing he is not feeling well and is at the lowest time of his life..he just mean everything to me..

This wasn't a smooth week for me..cos his illness not getting any better..i am so worried and upset..sometimes i reali don nod how to make him feel better..just hope my presence will make him feel that he is been cared and loved!!

Mag came back to SIN on the Sunday nite..with his dad..meet up with her on Monday..oh my god..Babe you are still do gorgeous and getting slimmer ah..heehee..Muz b cos of the Power of LOVE!!haha..stay pretty always gal!

I am working hard to make sure my handphones comes at the end of the month..HappYYyy..^^ Yupz..think i will be able to get the new phone on the 8th ah..haha..

feeling numb @ 8:22 PM

***Lovely couple***

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"Wearing his cap.."

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Army Buddies

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Hong Long n You wei

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Laogong n mummy^^

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Putting on the cap..hoho..c how happy he is..haha

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Second arrival of laogong's company

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Raiven Company march pass the audience(2)

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Raiven Company march pass the audience(1)

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Singing "Stand Up for Singapore'...

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School 2 coming their way

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Closer view..on the march out parade

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..Start of the parade..Raiven Company..at the back marching in..

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~~~Another pict of myself taken on the way...~~

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On the way to Lao gong's POP

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22th of Aug

Monday blues....reali is blue man..tired n restless..mayb is due to enough sleep ba..heehee..after a week of training..think everything is on track now..cos i m confirm i will be working as a LCSC agent in DHL liao..overall the job is quite challenging for me cos i nber try this kinda job before.. n the ppl there is good n friendly..reali has to thanks my mentor..'Cynthia'..she has been reali patience n detail in everything she teach..she gives me example to guide me through..

I just ended my number "1" life..heehee..started my "2" life now..not old la..is MATURE!!haha..hmmm..Reali have to thanks many ppl who makes my day so meaningful okay....my family..thanks for the 2 meals..hooo..my aunt, mom n dad for the hong bao.hehe..sis n sista-in-law for my spectacles..Laogong for the spectaclees n shoes n jacket..n STILL ROAD ---> CRAB..super nice man..heehee..i love them..haha..Next Wendy, keow for treating me to Marche n bought me presents n of cos magmag n han..although u 2 r not here but ya wishes on my blog n friendster n magmag by calling me on the actual..muacks love ya guys man.heehee..Love all of them..MUACKS!!!

This days i m always telling myself i will work hard to get my phone as well as holidays..heehee..so my working spirit has been higher..now then i realise working not easy..money is reali hard earn ones...

Okay...work hard is my goal now..heee..c all mui lovely friends soon man..!! N my one n only one lao gong on the coming sat!!

*God Bless everyone..*

feeling numb @ 7:19 PM

Just finish my dinner with my mummy n daddy at home..decided to come online n blog for the bad day of mine..

Haiz..Today i have an internal change, from the department of Asset Recovery to the department of LSC => Logistics Solution Center in DHL..hai.actuali not bad to transfer..moreover is under the same supervisor.who is very good..But i am not prepared for the sudden change..not i don like the department nor i think the job scop is bad..This morning stil happily working with Idah => my colleagues, teaching me this n that..thinking that i hab the chance to touch the computer n put on the head phone to talk to customers today..but after my supervisor tells me that due to some internal change i have to change to other department for the time being until everything settle n if is confirm the job ==> [ which is going to b in-charge by me ] will be pass on to other team..then i will stay at LSC for good but is not pass on to other then i will go back to the Asset Recovery..i feel a bit upset cos i feel like not very stable for this job which i intially think is very stable..n i feel like a ball been kick here n there..not feeling happy n i m reali shock to hear that..i hav been train for three days n now i have to start all over again..with different things to learn..making me confuse.so today i m so upset@@..BAD DAY!!

feeling numb @ 7:06 PM